I know this isn't right, all the silence and the awkward act. But I don't know how to fix this, I really don't. For now all I can do is to keep thing like the way it is. I hope this isn't gonna last forever.
And anyway, did you happy? Because it seems like you do, and if you do, I feel happy for you too. Really. That's all that matters to me, for you to be happy.